final day of class lectures

today is the last day of my agony...
haha!it is the end of the tiring lectures of this semester...
next week, after the exams,
well, hello summer!!
can't wait to be mall hoppin' and all!
unfortunately, this is also the end for free internet access!
goodbye internet laboratory...
'am just goin' to make the mos out of my summer!

friends are those people you can be goofy with...
friends are those people you can rely on...
friends are those people you can confide with...
friends are those people you can cry on...

they are those people who'll be with you when you are down
they are those people who'll make you smile when you frown
they are those people who'll help you on all sorta stuffs
they are those people who'll accompany u when you are in pain or when you laugh

people u can't find as easy as that
people u can't replace a easy as that
people who can stay forever
people who, no matter what, will always be there...

i honestly believe in this notion

who among you haven't been stupid when you're in love?

probably no one

its hard to believe but we do tend to be a lot stupid than we thought,right?

we become someone we never thought we would ever be...

someone unacceptable by the public

but lovely to you and your love partner...

there is nothing wrong with being stupid in love...

just don't overdo it

coz as we all have heard,"too much of anything is WRONG"

we can not blame ourselves for being so...

its just that, we chose to be in that position,right?

what a day!

...a new day had passed...
a life was touched
and somehow, i wish i should have made the most of
this day...
i have spent the rest of the day
sitting...
staring at nowhere...
i have been watching people pass me
by...
some i knew well, some familiar faces and some new
faces
i caught a cold this day
'am not really feeling well...
can't really breath freely...
i feel so bad...
things aren't turning out the way i expected them
to be
oh how i wish this day was much
better...
how i wish i've done the best i can
do...
the sun is setting...
and i really feel terrible...
head aching...unbearable cold...
hmmp!why is my day like this...
but then, i saw my butterfly
'twas a lovely thing...
it made me revive my bliss...
then i realized..what the heck!there's still time
to make this day worthwhile...

butterflies are so gorgeous...
a portrait of aspirations
dreams that someday will come...
they soar high
...to reach the heavenly sky
oh yeah they're tiny creatures...
but they're big in a lot of features
angels...coming down from heaven
giving us hope for a better life to begin...
just look at them...
believe...
be free...
have hope...
relive your passion

isnt this so cute!

enough

enough with the melodrama will yah!
'am tired of looking at myself... drenched with tears
to hell with the people who lets me down!
i ain't gonna fall apart just coz of ya'll, you know!
'am gonna stand up...
and prove myself...
besides, this is my life...
and i'll do everything i want to...
and the least you can do is appreciate it...
please people, see me in a better prospect...
i do know i can show you something else...
something i can be proud of... and you too...

i have been thinking this past few days
"is love really enough?"
"would love really conquer all?"
it is so hard to believe in this notion coz obviously, this isn't workin' for me...
i have been loving all my life but all i ever get in return is a short moment of bliss...
then suddenly, my life gets shattered...
i have been giving my all but it still seems not enough...
i have sacrificed a lot for things to work out...
but then, things go wrong...
and...i get all the blame!
why?
is my love not enough?
am i not enough?
tell me... am i not?

all i ever dream of

..all i ever dreamed of is someone i can call 'mine'.,

someone that can lay it all on the line.,
i even thought,'when i find this guy, its all or nothing'.,
and i would consider him my everything.,
it took me so long to realize,that this guy was just by my side.,
he was a friend of mine.,
someone i cherish for all time.,
i wanted to confess it all,but it seems so hard to let him understand how i fall.,
"why with him?'..'why not with somebody else?'.,
coz if i mess up, everything would be like hell!.,
i tried keeping it to myself i tried fooling myself.,
but then,there's something in me that wants to spill how i feel.,
til one day,i realized...
...being with him was just a dream.,
a dream as it seems.,s
omething so impossible to be,
something so hard to see!,,

somehow

i have been lying so much to myself...
pretending things would work out...
that somehow, i would be understood...
that somehow, somebody would listen...
just listen...and not say a word...
i have been living in a world where people scrutinize me...
people underestimate me...
they think i don't get hurt...
but honestly, i do...
all this pain have been hurting me for so long...
i need help...badly
i need someone to believe in me and trust me...
coz that's all i need... trust... acceptance...and love...
i know that somehow...somewhere... i would get that...
eventually, i would!