somehow

i have been lying so much to myself...
pretending things would work out...
that somehow, i would be understood...
that somehow, somebody would listen...
just listen...and not say a word...
i have been living in a world where people scrutinize me...
people underestimate me...
they think i don't get hurt...
but honestly, i do...
all this pain have been hurting me for so long...
i need help...badly
i need someone to believe in me and trust me...
coz that's all i need... trust... acceptance...and love...
i know that somehow...somewhere... i would get that...
eventually, i would!