bury me deep

how unfortunate it is to be in a relationship where there's so many secrets going on. so many things you can't share to the one person who you would generally confide to. 

it breaks my heart to see how sad you are and there's nothing i can do. call me selfish but what shatters me more than my heart breaking, is the fact that you can't even tell me what's bothering you so much. i accepted you for who you are.. for all of you. i'm going through everything that involves your life whether you like it or not. and that's because i love you. i chose to be that girl who would be left behind..all alone on most occasions. i chose to be that girl that you can't introduce to the other half of your life. i am that girl who chose to be taken for granted. i chose to be stupid. the least you can do is be open with me. be honest. cause that's all i'm holding on to. but i guess now, i am also that girl that you can't share your worries to. i am that girl that you see only when everything else in your life is perfect. 

i am that girl.. and it's so painful to know that you will always see me as that girl. and you will never be the guy who would take me out of that miserable disposition.