2015

i guess it's true what they say about new year.. you get to realize what matters most and what should be left behind where it belongs. it teaches you to stop carrying extra baggage with you that will only drag you down from the beginning til the end of the year. 

there are things that no matter how hard you try though, you just can't let go of. despite that, i am thankful. 

thank you for making it clear to me what i am and where i stand in your life. thank you for making me feel so worthless. thank you for proving me that even if i love you so very deeply, you can never love me back the way i hope you would. thank you for teaching me, no matter how painful and heartbreaking it is, i learned the lesson to love myself more than i love you. to respect myself cuz you obviously  won't. 

rejoice in the fact that i love you too much that i can't leave you. but know that i'm done begging for your love. know that this new year, i'm deciding to love myself. because i owe myself so much love that i have been giving you which i should have just given myself in the first place. 

i am so done. i've tried everything i can to  love you and be the best i could. but unfortunately, i'm just not good enough for  you. i just can't be that person for you. 

well.. happy new year to you.