emotionless!

i don't think there's an emoticon to describe how i feel right now

i am defintely not happy..or laughing..or grinning for that matter!
i am somehow doubtful..just a little bit
i am in no mood to spread hugs & kisses..no smooches for now
i am sort of sleepy..but not really
i ain't mad..not at all
i don't look angelic..not devilish either!
i am not to say goodbyes yet
i am way,way past sad..or teary-eyed
& i am certainly not heart-broken...not yet!

is there an emoticon for a dying heart but with a struggling mind??

..........is there????