babbles

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i wore my uniform this morning. i spent like an hour in front of the mirror trying to believe i was actually wearing it. it is not that bad but the tailor made it too loose and too long so i got more uncomfortable. i brought extra clothes at school so right after my class, i immediately went to the restroom and changed. i just do not want to walk around wearing the uniform. i am sorry to say but it is just not my choice of clothing.
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at jeco's house, we decided to watch The Storm breaker(Alex Rider) but since it is raining heavily, i fell asleep.ha ha! i watched only the first five minutes of the movie and then i went to slumber. by the time i woke up, i was able to watch the closing credits.ha ha! sleepy head!
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at my MASSCOMM2 subject, which is a major subject, Sir Liwanag asked us to write a summery lead of a certain incident. i tried to write the lead as good as i can do. when we all submitted our pieces, Sir Liwanag pointed out that he will separate the trash leads from the salvageable leads. guess what??mine got into the TRASH! ha ha! super embarrassing. after all my efforts in writing it, it still is a trash. i do not feel bad anyway because sir said that all journalists get their pieces rejected at first. practice is all i need.
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when i got home, kimberly and ate amy was at the living room. they both were sleeping so i just kept quiet. when they woke up, we just had a little chat and then we did our own businesses. the other hand,kimberly, out of the silence in the four walls, started to fart continuously. it was really hilarious. she herself could not stop laughing. good thing it was not a stinker!

babbles

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me and kairah:

kai:ate..

me:bakit?

k:ano kaya itatawag ko sa pinakasalan ni mommy.tito o papa?

m:ewan ko sayo.ano ba gusto mo?

k:di ko alam.

(any name would be alright ading)

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kimberly:you're WATHING but a second DATE trying hard PUSA

(ha ha!you would really die out of laughter if you heard her say it)


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kath:uhm bez, i guess you have proven so many things to me.we have undergone lots of things and circumstances. but one big fight led us to such as this.i always want you to be a part of my life.i want to share so much laughter with you.i want you to know all my ups and downs, my joys and sorrows...everything..i mean just everything about me..without a single lie. you have known me for so long and i never hesitated to show you the real me.during our struggles BEFORE,we are always there for each other, but NOW look at us.did you bother to reminisce what our situation have gone?to tell you the truth i feel pain and i miss you a lot.but i think things would never be the same again.so starting now, i am layinf off your life and i hope you'll find a true friend better than me.a million thanks would be enough to show my gratitude to you.it doesn't end here.i know that someday time would bring it all back together.enjoy your life now.a life without me.


(this was actually her message for me.i have read it like a couple of time and i am trying to understand what it is i did. but bez, i am sorry!)

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ate phau & her korean student:
ate: why are you late?did you run or did you walk?
korean: did you run ma'am.
(ah okay!i get it.well, he is still learning english.that is forgivable.)

on what i can do for the country...
me and my mom went to the commission on elections office this morning to register for the upcoming SK/barangay elections. my mom just found out about the registration last night so we immediately went this morning since it is the last day of the reservation for the registration.by the time we arrived at around 11:30, there was already a very long line.but still, we stayed since it is the last day for me to be able to contribute something for the country.i want my voice to be heard. i want that whoever is elected, should be the deserving one.not like the past elections. i am at the right age to help.so i will!

my field of interest...
with the long line in the comelec,we already expected reporters to be present. well, it is their job in the first place-to be at any events at all times..to be enterprising.while i was waiting for my turn, a reporter from ABS-CBN came and started his beat. it was really nice to see someone do it right in front of you.being a mass communications student, i was fascinated by how the reporter did it.except for those takes and mistakes he did, i still was glad to see someone in action.someday, i will do that too.someday!

feeling down...
i am sick!i do not know what triggered my asthma!i am not eating junk food that much and i do not drink cold beverages or even go near someone who is smoking so why am i having an asthma attack??i fell very heavy right now.i can not breath well, i keep on coughing, and i can
not sleep well either.i just hope i get better tomorrow. i don't want to be sick at the first day of class.

money transfer control number...
i still have not gotten the money my mother at the US sent me.they say the money transfer control number was wrong.we kept on verifying it a couple of times and still, no money!what am i supposed to do??i need that money right now.i have to pay for my tuition, ortho treatment, and my visa application.help!

..taken from my phone.thanks to the genius mind of those people who invented camera phones!i like this pic partly-just partly.i don't know.there's something wrong with it.maybe my eyebag.ha ha! or my braces??dunno!

rise from your graveyard

thursday...
we went to the cadaver room at our school.i don't know what got in my head that i said yes to going there.i am not scared but thinking about a room with dead people is just so unnatural. when i got inside, the dead people are covered in cloth so it was like the great revealing!i was excited yet freaked out that i may faint(which i didn't-thank God!).when they removed the sheets, all i felt was pity.i don't know. they just look terrible. and for the information, i did not touch any of the 6 bodies.well, isn't it too much and bad enough that they did not get a burial they deserve.a little respect is all i can ever give.and what would you fell if somebody explores your internal organs and can not put it back in its right place??so not good. the moment i left the room, i prayed for their souls.they were victims-rape, polio disease, drowned and all sorts. i felt really bad.

this day

i am trying to customize my blog but i can not seem to do it. i am lost talaga. i understand the classic blog better than this new one. wish ko lang sana na mas ma-manage ko ang layout ko nang mas madali.no hustles.hirap kasi eh.pero hindi naman ako sumusuko.i will still try to do it as long as may internet card pa kami.

school issues..
i have this classmate na super sa pagkaqueenbee.kainis talaga. well hindi lang naman siya isang tao.they are a clique in our class.they sort of bully others because they think that they are the greatest creation of God.hello?!rude much!super eksena sila all the time to the point na nakakairita talaga at nakakaistorbo sa iba.i am not envious hah.i am just really irritated.

mom issue...
i went to western union awhile ago to get the money my mom sent.hindi ko nakuha.super expect pa naman ako.syempre pera yun.ka-ching!tomorrow maybe i can get it already.hopefully.out of cash na kami here at home eh.

friends

friends are those people you can be goofy with...
friends are those people you can rely on...
friends are those people you can confide with...
friends are those people you can cry on...

they are those people who'll be with you when you are down
they are those people who'll make you smile when you frown
they are those people who'll help you on all sorta stuffs
they are those people who'll accompany u when you are in pain or when you laugh

people u can't find as easy as that
people u can't replace a easy as that
people who can stay forever
people who, no matter what, will always be there...

on the school issues...

well, i had the results of my philosophy and biological science examination. ang masasabi ko lang, i am pretty damn satisfied..masaya talaga ako.sa philosophy exam ko, i got 398 out of 400 and sa biological science, 44 out of 50.so yun, super happy talaga kasi yung pagpupuyat ko sa pagrereview eh talagang nag pay-off.ayos na yun sakin.at least may grade akong ihaharap sa mama ko.pati nakakaencourage kasi yung thought na kaya ko pala magexcel sa academics.

on the friendship issue...
i have not seen my bestfriend, si kath, for two weeks na yata. eh yun, i must admit, even though we had a really bad fight, i miss her..really.nagtitipid kasi ako kaya hindi ako nagloload di ko tuloy siya natetext.maski si jean, di ko na din natetext.guilty tuloy ako kasi jean always texts me with a sad face or a crying face tapos di ko man lang siya mareplyan.bad friend ba ako??

on the home issue...
i have beeen bugging my mom at california since May to send me money for my tuition and all.by all i mean my daily allowance, my pang-gala, and my shopping thingy. but, she did not send me money so i did not call her.the last call we had was like last month pa.eh yun, di ko alam, she has been calling me pala to tell me that she sent money last month pa.dahil sa kadramahan ko, di ko nalaman agad.buti nalang pala, i did not send her the letter i made which has a part like this.."nakalimutan mo na talaga na may anak ka pa dito.minsan lang naman ako humingi sayo pro kung ayaw mo talaga, di naman kita pipilitin eh." ha ha! buti nalang talaga di ko sinend kasi kung hindi, super pahiya siguro ako and super tawa mama ko.talk about being melodramatic.

on the lighter side...
all i can say for this day is, sana natulog nalang ako buong araw. i went to my regular classes, but a lot of my classmates did not attend our classes.and so is one of my instructors.then, some of my close classmates are pretty tired too so boring talaga.yun lang yun-boring!

school time

our exam had just ended last friday and i am pretty glad with it because it was not that hard. i thought it wouldbe hard since all the topics our instructors discussed are totally confusing. thank God they cut us some slack and made the exam easy. i am going to see the results tomorrow. i am excited and nervous at the same time. it may be easy but what if i did not get it correct. i will find out tomorrow.

it is holiday today-in short-no classes.
tomorrow's going to be the first class day of the week. i can not wait to attend classes again.see my friends, my classmates, my frenemies, my grades, and my instructors. i enjoy going to classes...really.maybe because here at home, i do not have much to do but sleep and eat. in school, i learn(seriously) and i have fun at the same time.

it was just right that i shifted from computer engineering to mass communication because if i did continue my former course, i would definitely be at lost right now from the lectures to the uniform(i hated it so much-talk about sailor's uniform?!).but now, i am having a great time with the lectures, the people, and the whole media exposure thingy.love it, love it!but still, i can not get away from a bad uniform!well, it is like what our instructors wear-except for the color..ours is beige.good thing we only wear it twice a week.mondays to tuesdays(talk about a bad impression for the start of the week).but that's still a good deal,right? rather that wear it everyday.i'll sacrifice.i can.i will.

people say i shifted because i can not handle the whole engineering thing but that's not really the case. i just wanted to pursue mass communication because, in the first place, it really is my passion. and i wanted to graduate from something that i am good at and i am going to do for my entire life with fulfillment and bliss.engineering is not bad.it's just not my thing.

all i know is that right now, i am enjoying what i do.interviews, write-ups, articles, and all that.
i just love it.just like that...

this was taken over the summer. i was really dark due to over soaking under the sun.ha ha! now i am paying the price. until now, i still am way over tanned!maybe i will try some whitening products though i
am not into those stuffs. i am proud of my complexion.at least i don't look
dull.

id, ego, and, super ego

awhile ago, before my natural science examination, i and my friends were waiting outside our classroom.we were not aware that there is an examination going on inside one of the classrooms so we thought it would be okay if we chat for awhile just outside the room.but then, we started to have a real good time.we were giggling and laughing out loud.after some time, the instructor inside the room came out and started reprimanding us. we just kept quiet because we know we were wrong but then, all of a sudden, he called me and three of my friends inside and talked to us.he asked us what school we were from, we answered politely but he then discriminated our school. he said that whatever kind of school we were from, we should not bring it in college. we were really embarrassed.to add more humiliation, when we got out of the room, he followed us and said out loud in front of a lot of students that we are going to meet him by 6:30 pm to discuss our misbehavior.so we went at that time. by that time, we talked at the faculty office(humiliation!).again, he reprimanded us and started bashing us about our behavior.he even listed our name under a certain 'misbehavior list' just like a blotter list in a police station. and again, we were so embarrassed!

the id in me feels so bad and totally humiliated about the incident. i wanted to call my mom and call for reinforcement.haha! it is like i want to go ballistic and have tantrums right then and there.but, obviously, i can't!

the ego in me wanted to trash talk him too because he went way over the line. it's not like we killed someone!we just had fun! maybe telling us to shhh would be enough but no!he still humiliated us and placed us in a freaking list.well yeah he is a higher person but he can't just reprimand us for just a very simple reason. and, in public?? hello! respect!

lastly, the super ego in me makes me think twice of bashing him back because i know deep in my heart that it is our fault in the first place why he went mad at us. i kind of understand where he is coming from but my ego just won't give in. i respect his authority totally and i like want to just let go of that issue and go on with my life. it is our fault, i do not and can't deny it. he had his faults too but we started it.

now, i am more on my super ego. i kind of just let it go. maybe one day, i will see him again along the corridors in the school campus and i can have the heart to greet him with a sincere smile. i am not mad at him anymore.i understand him more now. maybe he overdid it but it already happened. there is nothing i can do to take it back but to change how i act in public.

this is one experience i will never forget.really.

Way Back Into Love (full version)

the song is super nice!it is a slideshow of scenes from the movie.for those who haven't watched it yet, i am telling you, you can not miss it.so good!

words i live by

i....fat!

..i am pretty down right now.i am going straight to the point.i am getting fatter by the minute.i do not deny it because everytime i see myself in the mirror, i see a fat girl and it does not look really good.i know that other people may say that i am just vain and overly self-conscious but i can't stop myself from thinking and feeling that i am getting big.i really don't want to be big.nobody does.last summer, i was confident in wearing m,y racer backs and sleeveless clothes but now, i always cover myself up.i do not feel confident anymore.all the people i know tells me that 'hey, you're getting fat!,' instead of saying 'hi, how are you.'i just laugh it off in front of them but deep down, i feel so terrible because i know that it is my fault that i am becoming like this. i can't help eating and sleeping most especially that i did not take summer classes so i was like stucked at home doing nothing but sleep and eat.now, i am paying the price.
weeks ago, i started doing crunches thrice a week and i kept on measuring my waistline.though i know it is really bad to live by the measurements, i still feel it in me that i have to know if my weight changed or not.i really have to lose some weight.
it is not just a matter of the numbers...for me, it is the confidence that i lost that matters.i want to be able to face other people without me being awkward all the time.i want to wear clothes i like to wear without any constrictions.i like to be greeted by people with hello.i like to stand and walk with my chin up.i want to be pleased with myself once again....

alone time

as always, i am alone again here at home..well, i do not really go out that much anymore unlike my brother who happens to be my complete opposite.i guess i just got fed up walking around places i saw a thousand times plus it is raining all the time so it will just kill the fun.i don't feel bad anyway.i kind of like the solitude because it makes me think things deeper and i get to rest from the hustle and bustle outside.plus, i am able to review for my upcoming preliminary examination.well, i really have to do good this time on my studies since i promised my mother that i will have good grades and it is not much for her to ask me that because it is the only way i can show her that i have changed and i am taking things seriously this time unlike before that i take everything for granted including her.i promised to myself that i will really do good this time..i have to..not only for me..

music & lyrics

i watched the movie recently and it was pretty great. most especially the songs.they are so catchy.i got so fixated with the song ‘way back into love.’ the lyrics is so good and the melody(most sepecially the piano part) really made it fantastic. although the hugh-drew match-up is a little odd, somehow, they pulled it off still. they were really great in their roles and who would have thought that they can sing??i had doubts then but after hearing their voices, i stand corrected.they are good.hugh was surprisingly a good singer..and a dancer too.nice!after i saw the movie, the song got stucked on my head and i kept singing it over and over again.i also found myself looking up through the internet on the lyrics and download of the songs.it was preety weird because i was really never that fixated with soundtracks of movies but this one really changed me..well, i just have to admit, all in all, it is just really catchy and good!