id, ego, and, super ego
awhile ago, before my natural science examination, i and my friends were waiting outside our classroom.we were not aware that there is an examination going on inside one of the classrooms so we thought it would be okay if we chat for awhile just outside the room.but then, we started to have a real good time.we were giggling and laughing out loud.after some time, the instructor inside the room came out and started reprimanding us. we just kept quiet because we know we were wrong but then, all of a sudden, he called me and three of my friends inside and talked to us.he asked us what school we were from, we answered politely but he then discriminated our school. he said that whatever kind of school we were from, we should not bring it in college. we were really embarrassed.to add more humiliation, when we got out of the room, he followed us and said out loud in front of a lot of students that we are going to meet him by 6:30 pm to discuss our misbehavior.so we went at that time. by that time, we talked at the faculty office(humiliation!).again, he reprimanded us and started bashing us about our behavior.he even listed our name under a certain 'misbehavior list' just like a blotter list in a police station. and again, we were so embarrassed!
the id in me feels so bad and totally humiliated about the incident. i wanted to call my mom and call for reinforcement.haha! it is like i want to go ballistic and have tantrums right then and there.but, obviously, i can't!
the ego in me wanted to trash talk him too because he went way over the line. it's not like we killed someone!we just had fun! maybe telling us to shhh would be enough but no!he still humiliated us and placed us in a freaking list.well yeah he is a higher person but he can't just reprimand us for just a very simple reason. and, in public?? hello! respect!
lastly, the super ego in me makes me think twice of bashing him back because i know deep in my heart that it is our fault in the first place why he went mad at us. i kind of understand where he is coming from but my ego just won't give in. i respect his authority totally and i like want to just let go of that issue and go on with my life. it is our fault, i do not and can't deny it. he had his faults too but we started it.
now, i am more on my super ego. i kind of just let it go. maybe one day, i will see him again along the corridors in the school campus and i can have the heart to greet him with a sincere smile. i am not mad at him anymore.i understand him more now. maybe he overdid it but it already happened. there is nothing i can do to take it back but to change how i act in public.
this is one experience i will never forget.really.
