am’ really scared…

I am a scaredy-cat., and I’m proud of it!., hekhek! Only few people know that., they think I am a strong person so they do not really care much., they say I can handle everything that comes my way( you think?!) Hell no! I am most likely Courage, the cowardly dog. I get petrified too! I freak out from those oral recitations to those ‘unexpected brownouts while alone’ situations., but I still try to do some things to lessen the fear in me.,
There’s this part on the show Mastermind(by Eric, ‘whatever his surname is’) wherein a video of a ghost was shown. Heck, I was so frightened! I wanted to switch channels but I couldn’t move! I was just so scared… but then I thought- “if I do not watch this, I’d be scared of ghosts my entire life.” So I watched it. And no kidding, I had goose bumps all over me!
It did scare the hell out of me but I guess it was sort of worthwhile., I can’t stay scared all the time…

One fear down, a LOT MORE to go…

The worst thing you can ever do to yourself is loving someone more than you love yourself- giving everything to a person without leaving any for yourself, making someone think that he is in control, and, never complaining for whatever he does…

what love really is

I want to believe that love is enough
To give u contentment & to make you laugh
I want to believe that love is enough
To make you stay although times are tough
I guess I was wrong in wanting that
Coz by the way things are, love is NOT really all that

(bu hu hu! Sad but true… whatever we do, there will always… I mean, ALWAYS something more than love can ever offer…)

amistad

I do not mind having friends coz they are one heck of a group that you can always count on., I do love being around my friends coz they give u a sense of belongingness like no other people can ever give…
If I do not mind having friends, of course I also don’t mind having new friends., it feels good to have new ones too, right?? It is great that my ‘friend count’ is adding up., and, it is real good to know that someone even cared to notice you., that someone even cared…
And, I do mind when your former friends or even your new found friend suddenly decided to be your new found enemy., talk about two-in-one people., I just dislike those kind of people., u trusted them and expected them to be there for you not knowing that behind you, they are really not that good., they are the ‘ultimate plastics’., what I hate most is when they talk trash about you and even have the guts to look straight to your eyes and say ‘I didn’t say/do anything, I wouldn’t do that to you’…what a plastic!.,
If one can’t value friendship, why bother befriending other people., it is bad to be faking other people and it is even worse to make someone put up with the wrong actions you did… before befriending other people, one must be sure to cherish that friendship coz if not, better leave them alone…

kwento ng pag-ibig

kung ikaw ay isang kwento
ikaw ang pinakamagandang kwento!
punong-puno ng buhay
...saya, takot, kagandahan at lumbay
isa kang kwentong maalala ng lahat
isang kwentong makulay at tapat
bawat pahina, may dalang tuwa
galak na hindi maikakaila

ikaw ang pinakamagandang kwento ng buhay ko
saya, pag-ibig at kagandahan ang dala mo
kinumpleto mo ang pagkatao ko
pinasigla mo ang bawat sulok ng buhay ko
kung wala ka, kulang na kulang ako
kung wala ka, malungkot ang buhay ko
ikaw ang pinakamagandang nangyare sa buhay ko
ikaw ang kwentong habangbuhay na nasa puso ko!

nandito lang ako

kung kailangan mo ako
nandito lang ako
maasahan mo ako
sa lahat ng problema mo
kahit anong mangyare
andito lang ako sa iyong tabi
hindi ka iiwan
hindi ka pababayaan
sa anumang bagay, tutulungan kita
saan mang lugar, sasamahan kita
mahirapan man ako
di ako magrereklamo
tanda lang to ng pasasalamat ko
sa lahat-lahat ng nagawa mo
sa lahat ng tulong mo
sa pakikisama mo
at sa sayang ibinigay mo
sa totoo lang...
kulang pa to!

i am cramming!again!

...it has been two weeks and counting since i last attended my classes straight., i have been out of school since the first grading exam., i dont know., 'am just not in the mood to go!., my blockmates have been wondering what the problem is, but actually, there is no problem., i just waana rest for a while from those bumming researches whatsoever., i am a straight A student so i really dont mind getting absent for some time., i can still catch up., i did enjoy not hearing those boring lectures., it is good to be away from pressure., haha!., maybe tomorrow i will go back to school., or maybe not., hmmm.... i think i have to go back tomorrow., the midterm exams will start tomorrow., what?!., is time really that quick??., oh, i think i'm dead!., haven't got any ink on my notebook., what am i suppose to do., i guess i need help., anyone??., help??.,
...well i guess it is true that good things fade quickly.